pc jan 8 1999 EVE: AND HE WAS AMAZING, THE WAY HE BROKE DOWN THAT WALL. BUT THE WHOLE TIME THAT COOPER AND JULIE WERE HOLDING KEVIN AND ME HOSTAGE BEFORE YOU FOUND US, I COULDN'T HELP BUT THINK HOW HORRIBLE IT WOULD BE IF I LOST KEVIN. CHRIS: YOU'RE GOING TO TELL HIM HOW YOU FEEL, HUH? EVE: YEAH. I GOT TO TELL HIM HOW I FEEL, AND HOPE I DON'T END UP WITH EGG ON MY FACE. CHRIS: WELL, IF YOU DO, JUST COME FIND ME AND WE'LL MAKE AN OMELET TOGETHER. EVE: ALL RIGHT. WISH ME LUCK. CHRIS: GOOD LUCK. [CAPTIONING MADE POSSIBLE BY NCI'S CORPORATE PARTNERS] ELLEN: THIS IS DR. BURGESS. SCOTT: HEY, ELLEN. IT'S SCOTT. SERENA'S GOT THIS LITTLE SURPRISE PLANNED FOR LUCY. IS SHE STILL HANGING AROUND THE HOSPITAL? ELLEN: SHE LEFT ALREADY. SCOTT: OH, GOOD. THEN SHE'LL BE HERE SHORTLY. OK. ELLEN: SHE DID MENTION THAT SHE HAD A STOP TO MAKE ON THE WAY. SCOTT: WHAT KIND OF STOP? ELLEN: WELL -- SCOTT: LIKE SHE'S STOPPING FOR A CARTON OF MILK, SOME DOUGHNUTS OR SOMETHING? ELLEN: WELL, IT COULD TAKE LONGER THAN THAT. SCOTT: WELL, NO FLIES ON ME. I GUESS SHE'S SEEING AN OLD FRIEND -- INITIALS, KEVIN COLLINS. ELLEN: SHE WAS CONCERNED ABOUT HIM. SCOTT: THANK YOU, ELLEN. I'LL TALK TO YOU LATER. LUCY: I AM SO SORRY THAT YOU SAW ME AND SCOTT TOGETHER LIKE THAT. IF I COULD GO BACK IN TIME SOMEHOW AND JUST CHANGE THE WHOLE THING, I -- I WOULD. BECAUSE YOU'RE THE MAN I WANT TO SHARE MY WHOLE LIFE WITH. PLEASE SAY YOU FORGIVE ME, DOC. SERENA: DADDY, IS LUCY COMING? SCOTT: OH -- IT MAY BE A LITTLE WHILE THERE, APPLESAUCE. SERENA: OH. WHERE IS SHE? SCOTT: SHE JUST HAD TO MAKE A STOP. WE CAN OPEN UP OUR PRESENTS. SERENA: UH-UH. I THINK I CAN WAIT. SCOTT: SERENA, I KNOW YOU LOVE LUCY. SERENA: YEAH, AND YOU LOVE HER, TOO, DON'T YOU? SCOTT: YES. YES, I DO. BUT, SEE, LUCY'S GOT HER OWN LIFE, YOU KNOW. AND NOW THAT THIS GUY -- THAT GREG COOPER'S BEEN, YOU KNOW, CAUGHT, SHE'S SAFE OUT THERE AND -- I DON'T KNOW, MAYBE SHE'S JUST NOT COMFORTABLE LIVING HERE WITH US. SERENA: HELLO. LUCY LOVES IT HERE. WHY WOULD SHE WANT TO LIVE SOMEPLACE ELSE? [ANSWERING MACHINE BEEPS] VICTOR'S VOICE: YASOS, MONK. THAT IS, GREETINGS FROM GREECE. KEVIN: GREECE? VICTOR'S VOICE: YOU HEARD ME, GREECE. MARY AND I AREN'T IN THE POCONOS AFTER ALL. I'LL FILL YOU IN WHEN WE GET BACK, WHENEVER THAT IS. MEANWHILE, I'VE BEEN MONITORING THE POLICE REPORTS, AND I HEARD THAT GREG COOPER AND JULIE WERE CAPTURED. THANK HEAVENS! I CAN'T WAIT TO SWAP ADVENTURE STORIES WITH YOU. LATER. [ANSWERING MACHINE BEEPS] [DOORBELL RINGS] KEVIN: LUCY. LUCY: HI. KEVIN: OH -- SORRY. COME ON IN. LUCY: OH, THANK YOU. I'M SORRY TO DROP BY SO UNEXPECTEDLY. I -- I JUST WANTED TO SEE HOW YOU WERE DOING. AND I WANTED TO GIVE YOU SOMETHING, AND -- WELL, YOU KNOW, I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT YOU GIVE PEOPLE FOR GUNSHOT WOUNDS, SO I -- I PICKED THESE, MY FAVORITE. KEVIN: THESE ARE ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL, LUCY. I -- I CAN SAY THE PLACE NEEDS A LITTLE BRIGHTENING UP. LUCY: OH, GOOD. OH, SHOULD I CARRY THEM? I MEAN, YOUR SHOULDER AND EVERYTHING -- IS IT HURTING? KEVIN: NO, NO. LUCY: IS IT PAINFUL? KEVIN: WELL, IT DOESN'T FEEL GREAT. BUT LUCKY FOR ME, IT WAS JUST A FLESH WOUND. UNLIKE MAC'S SHOOTING -- I JUST CAME FROM THE POLICE STATION. THEY TOLD ME. LUCY: YEAH. ACTUALLY, IT WAS EXTREMELY TOUCH-AND-GO FOR A WHILE, BUT HE'S -- HE'S GOING TO BE OK. KEVIN: YEAH. I TALKED TO HIM. I CALLED HIM. HE SOUNDS LIKE HE'S GOING STIR-CRAZY AT HOME, BUT IT WAS GOOD TO HEAR HIS VOICE. LUCY: YEAH. OH, I'M SURE HE REALLY NEEDED TO TALK TO YOU, TOO. YOU KNOW, HE AND FELICIA HAVE BEEN EXTREMELY WORRIED ABOUT YOU, AND -- WELL, SO HAVE I -- BEEN WORRIED ABOUT YOU. YOU KNOW, I BLAME MYSELF MORE THAN ANYBODY FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED WITH THIS COOPER MESS. AND IF ANYTHING HAD HAPPENED TO YOU, I NEVER WOULD HAVE FORGIVEN MYSELF. KEVIN: LUCY, WHY WOULD YOU BLAME YOURSELF? LUCY: THAT DARN BOOK -- "GENERAL HOMICIDE." YOU STARTED WRITING THAT THING JUST TO GIVE YOURSELF SOMETHING TO DO WHEN I WAS LIVING WITH REX STANTON. AND THE BOOK STARTED THIS COOPER MESS. KEVIN: LUCY, COOPER HAD A VENDETTA AGAINST THE COLLINS FAMILY LONG BEFORE I EVER WROTE THAT BOOK. HE WOULD HAVE COME AFTER VICTOR AND I EVENTUALLY. I'M JUST SORRY YOU GOT CAUGHT IN THE CROSSFIRE. LUCY: THANKS. WELL, YOU KNOW ME -- I ALWAYS TRY AND FIND THE SILVER LINING OR LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, OR WHATEVER THEY SAY. AND I GUESS WHEN YOUR LIFE IS IN EXTREME JEOPARDY, IT CERTAINLY DOES PUT THINGS IN PERSPECTIVE. KEVIN: YEAH, IT SURE DOES. [DOORBELL RINGS] KEVIN: EXCUSE ME. LUCY: YEAH. WAITER: BONJOUR, MES AMIS. KEVIN: UH -- YOU KNOW, LUCY, THE FLOWERS WERE PLENTY. YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO DO THIS. LUCY: WELL, I DIDN'T. DID YOU ORDER THIS? KEVIN: ME? I WAS PLANNING ON PEANUT BUTTER. LUCY: OH, REALLY? WELL -- OH, MY. KEVIN: THANK YOU. LUCY: THANK YOU VERY MUCH. THEN WHO WOULD DO THIS? KEVIN: VICTOR. VICTOR LEFT ME A MESSAGE SAYING THAT HE HEARD THAT COOPER AND JULIE HAD BEEN ARRESTED, AND -- WELL, IT'S JUST LIKE HIM TO CELEBRATE THE CAPTURE OF TWO SERIAL KILLERS WITH A GOURMET MEAL. LUCY: RIGHT. OF COURSE. [DOORBELL RINGS] EVE: SURPRISE! I HOPE YOU'RE HUNGRY. THREE WOMEN. THREE PREGNANCY TESTS. SHE SAW A LINE. SHE SAW TWO LINES. SHE SAW A PLUS SIGN. WITH FACT PLUS ONE STEP THE PLUS/MINUS SIGNS... ARE SO EASY TO READ, THEY'RE UNMISTAKABLE. OH, BOY... OR GIRL. FACT PLUS. BIG NEWS HONEY! FOR ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO SAY, I LOVE HOW PINE-SOL CLEANS. I JUST WISH IT HAD A LIGHT PINE SCENT. TA DA! INTRODUCING NEW LIGHT PINE SCENT PINE-SOL. THE CLEANING POWER OF PINE-SOL WITH A LIGHT PINE SCENT. PINE-SOL. IN REGULAR AND NEW LIGHT PINE SCENT. p"? VO: When you make a SPAMBURGER hamburger... DAD: Perfect. VO: ...watch out. 'Cause it's so good... DAD: I got it. VO: ...it's gone. BABY: (BABY BURP) Gaah... VO: SPAM. So good... ...it's gone. < KEVIN: WE WERE JUST WONDERING WHERE THIS WONDERFUL DINNER CAME FROM. EVE: WELL, I HAD TO DO SOMETHING TO THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME AND LUCY, OF COURSE. SO -- WELL, ENJOY THE MEAL. KEVIN: OH, NO, NO, NO. NO, STAY. I MEAN, AT LEAST HAVE A BITE. EVE: I HAVE PLANS. I WAS ON MY WAY SOMEWHERE. KEVIN: BUT IT'S A DINNER FOR TWO. I MEAN, YOU MUST HAVE PLANNED TO STAY. EVE: YES, WELL, I -- I GUESS I ASSUMED THAT VICTOR WOULD BE HERE. SO, ANYWAY -- WELL, IT'S A GOOD THING LUCY'S HERE, SO THERE YOU GO. BON APPETIT. BOTH OF YOU ENJOY. CIAO. KEVIN: THANK YOU. KEVIN: ANOTHER FINE TIME AT KEVIN'S HOUSE. LUCY: I WOULD ND IT A LITTLE HARD TO ENJOY THE CHAMPAGNE NOW. KEVIN: WOULD -- WOULD YOU MIND? I REALLY FEEL LIKE I NEED TO -- LUCY: GO. PLEASE. PLEASE GO. KEVIN: THANK YOU. SERENA: WHEN IS LUCY GOING TO BE HERE? SCOTT: WELL, I TOLD YOU IT'LL TAKE A WHILE. HEY, WHY DON'T WE GO SEE THAT MOVIE ABOUT THAT BIG MONKEY THAT COMES TO TOWN. SERENA: I ALREADY SAW IT. SCOTT: WHAT ABOUT THAT MOVIE ABOUT THE -- THE PIG THAT COMES TO TOWN? SERENA: I ALREADY SAW THAT ONE, TOO. SCOTT: HOW ABOUT WE GO OUT ICE SKATING? THE SNOW IS JUST MELTING -- SERENA: UH-UH. SCOTT: OK. HOW ABOUT WE DO THIS -- SERENA: UH-UH. I WANT TO WAIT FOR LUCY. SCOTT: SHEESH. LUCY: HEY. WHERE'S EVE? WHAT -- WHAT DID SHE SAY? KEVIN: I -- I DIDN'T CATCH HER. LUCY: I'M SORRY. THIS WAS A VERY AWKWARD SITUATION. I GUESS SHE WAS PROBABLY PRETTY EMBARRASSED. KEVIN: WELL, I'LL JUST CALL HER LATER AND EXPLAIN THAT THERE WAS NO REASON TO BE. OBVIOUSLY SHE MISINTERPRETED. LUCY: YEAH. OBVIOUSLY. I'M GOING -- I'M GOING TO GO NOW -- YOU KNOW, GET OUT OF YOUR HAIR. I JUST -- I CAME BY TO SEE IF YOU WERE ALL RIGHT, AND I CAN SEE THAT YOU WERE DOING JUST FINE. KEVIN: LUCY. LUCY, I HATED THE WAY YOU PUT YOURSELF IN DANGER WITH COOPER. BUT I'LL NEVER FORGET HOW FEARLESS YOU WERE. LUCY: THANKS. I'M JUST GLAD IT'S FINALLY OVER. AND OF ALL THE PEOPLE I KNOW IN THE WORLD, YOU DESERVE THE PEACE THAT I HOPE YOU FIND. KEVIN: YOU KNOW, WHEN ALL THIS STARTED, I -- ACTUALLY, I BELIEVED I WAS STARTING TO LOSE IT AGAIN. I WAS HAVING BLACKOUTS AND I WAS HAVING VISIONS OF RYAN, AND I THOUGHT THAT I COULD BE THE KILLER. LUCY: NO, NO. DO YOU KNOW WHAT? I -- I NEVER ONCE -- NOT FOR ONE TEENY, TINY, LITTLE MOMENT -- EVER BELIEVED THAT WAS POSSIBLE. KEVIN: OUR LIVES SURE WERE A LOT DIFFERENT THEN. LUCY: THINGS SURE HAVE CHANGED. KEVIN: MAYBE TOO MUCH. LUCY: GOOD-BYE, KEVIN. LUCY: AND DON'T YOU EVER, EVER FORGET THAT. n NIGHT AND DAY n n YOU ARE THE ONE n FEEL FRESH, DRY, ALL DAY WITH LADY SPEED STICK GEL. GLIDES ON CLEAR, NEVER LEAVES A TRACE. LADY SPEED STICK GEL WITH 24 HOUR PROTECTION. n NIGHT AND DAY n BY MENNEN. TREK ON OVER TO SEARS... WHERE TONS OF TREADMILLS ARE NOW ON SALE. HOW ABOUT $100 OFF A SPACESAVER PROFORM EKG MODEL ? SO GO AHEAD, GET MOVING, FEEL GREAT... AND START '99 OFF RIGHT AT SEARS. MOM LOVES WHEN I MAKE FROSTED CUPCAKES FOR US. HURRY UP ! THE ICING'S READY ! NO UGLY DISH WILL MAKE ME MISS KATE'S BIG DESSERT. AND THANKS TO DAWN, I WON'T. [ Announcer ] DAWN ANTIBACTERIAL... SURROUNDS AND DISSOLVES THE TOUGHEST GREASE... BETTER THAN ANY BRAND. PLUS IT KILLS GERMS ON HANDS... SO YOU'LL HAVE NO WORRIES HERE. - HI, MOMMY ! - [ Gasps ] HERE'S ONE SPRINKLE ! SWEET ! WITH DAWN I DON'T MISS A THING. THIS IS... IT HELPS YOU SLEEP. THIS IS... IT HELPS YOU SLEEP, TOO. THEY BOTH HAVE THE EXACT SAME AMOUNT OF THE EXACT SAME SLEEP INGREDIENT. BUT TYLENOL PM HAS ADDED MEDICINE FOR HEADACHES, BACKACHES, EVEN FEVER. DO YOU HAVE A HEADACHE? UH-UH! BACKACHE? FEVER? UH-UH! UH-UH! THEN WHY TAKE MEDICINE FOR IT? TAKE... AHH... IT'S A SAFE, NON-HABIT FORMING WAY... TO FALL... SERENA: MERRY CHRISTMAS! WELL, SORT OF. LUCY: OH -- OH, MY GOODNESS! THIS IS AMAZING. THIS IS, WHAT, CHRISTMAS IN JANUARY? SERENA: YOU DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO CELEBRATE THE REAL ONE, SO WE DECORATED. WE HAD PLENTY OF TIME WHILE WE WERE WAITING FOR YOU. LUCY: OH. WELL, YOU KNOW WHAT, IF I KNEW YOU WERE GOING TO SURPRISE ME -- YOU KNOW, YOU SHOULD TELL ME BECAUSE THEN I WOULDN'T HAVE EVER BEEN LATE. SERENA: WELL, THEN IT WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN A SURPRISE. LUCY: WELL, YOU'RE RIGHT. BUT YOU CAN'T HAVE EVERYTHING, YOU KNOW. SCOTT: WELL, SHALL WE OPEN UP THE PRESENTS, OR DO YOU HAVE SOMEPLACE ELSE YOU HAVE TO GO? LUCY: NO. I WOULDN'T DREAM OF BEING ANYPLACE ELSE THAN RIGHT HERE WITH THE PEOPLE THAT I LOVE. SERENA: SEE, DADDY? LUCY: WHAT? WHAT? WHAT IS THAT? "SEE, DADDY" WHAT? SERENA: DADDY SAYS THAT NOW THAT EVERYTHING'S BACK TO NORMAL, YOU MIGHT WANT TO MOVE OUT AND LIVE SOMEPLACE ELSE. LUCY: YOU LISTEN TO ME, PUMPKINHEAD. LISTEN. I WANT YOU TO LISTEN WITH YOUR HEART AND HOLD IT RIGHT THERE, OK? NO MATTER WHERE I LIVE, YOU AND YOUR DADDY WILL ALWAYS BE MY FAMILY -- ALWAYS. CHRIS: NOT A WORD. I'LL BE OUT OF HERE IN JUST A SECOND. JUST MAKING A FEW NOTES IN THESE CHARTS FOR WHOMEVER'S TAKING OVER MY CASES. I JUST ASSUMED IT'D BE ALL RIGHT IF I MADE SURE MY PATIENTS WERE OK WHILE I'M AWAY. ELLEN: TAKE ALL THE TIME YOU NEED. I'M NOT HERE TO KICK YOU OUT. CHRIS: I'M SORRY. I GUESS I'M JUST A LITTLE EDGY, THAT'S ALL. THINK I'M OVERREACTING FROM BEING LABELED PUBLIC ENEMY NUMBER ONE? ELLEN: PROBABLY NOT. CHRIS: THANK YOU FOR THOSE KIND WORDS. ELLEN: HERE ARE A FEW MORE -- THE BOARD HAS SET THE DATE FOR YOUR REVIEW. I SUGGEST THAT YOU WORK ON A DEFENSE BECAUSE NO ONE IS WILLING TO CUT YOU ANY SLACK OVER THE DISASTER YOU CREATED WITH DL-56. CHRIS: THINK THAT WORD "DISASTER" IS CH A HARSH WORD, DON'T YOU? I KIND OF PREFER "FIASCO," MYSELF. ELLEN: TO-MAY-TO, TO-MAH-TO. CHRIS: LET'S CALL THE WHOLE THING OFF? ELLEN: YOU WISH. EVE: HELLO. CHRIS: WHAT ARE YOU DOING BACK HERE? EVE: WELL, I DECIDED TO TAKE YOU UP ON YOUR OFFER OF MARTINIS. I NEED TO DROWN MY SORROWS -- AGAIN. CHRIS: UH-OH. DOES THIS HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE GOOD DR. COLLINS? EVE: WHO? CHRIS: SAY NO MORE. I'M FINISHED HERE -- NO PUN INTENDED. LET'S GO. EVE: OK, BUT WAIT. NOW, BEING A WOMAN SCORNED, I HAVE TO WARN YOU THAT I NEED A LOT OF FOOD. AND THAT MEANS BUCKETS OF ICE CREAM. CHRIS: I GET THE PICTURE. COME ON. EVE: OK. KEVIN: HI. EVE: HI. KEVIN, DON'T YOU KNOW IT'S NOT NICE TO EAT AND RUN? KEVIN: YOU'RE THE ONE WHO RAN. I TRIED TO CATCH YOU. EVE: EXCUSE ME. YOU WERE WITH LUCY, REMEMBER? KEVIN: SHE CAME BY TO SEE HOW I WAS. THAT WAS IT. EVE: THAT WAS IT? KEVIN: SHE WISHED ME WELL, AND BY NOW SHE'S BACK AT THE FIREHOUSE. EVE: OH. KEVIN: MEANWHILE, THERE'S A FABULOUS DINNER AT MY HOUSE GETTING COLD. EVE: AND SOME FABULOUS CHAMPAGNE AT YOUR HOUSE GETTING WARM. KEVIN: SO, WHAT DO YOU SAY? COLD FOOD AND WARM CHAMPAGNE? EVE: OH. I CAN'T. I HAVE PLANS. CHRIS: NO, REALLY -- KEVIN: I'M SORRY. CHRIS: NO, NO, NO. IT WASN'T MY IDEA. EVE: WELL, WHICH IS EXACTLY WHY I'M NOT GOING TO BACK OUT. CHRIS: YOU KNOW SOMETHING, I ACTUALLY HAVE THIS REVIEW BOARD HEARING I HAVE TO PREPARE FOR. SO, HOW ABOUT YOU DO ME A FAVOR AND TAKE HER OFF MY HANDS FOR ME? KEVIN: I COULD DO THAT. EVE: THANKS. CHRIS: GET OUT OF HERE. HAVE FUN. KEVIN: SHALL WE? EVE: WE SHALL. SCOTT: HEY, DID YOU HAPPEN TO NOTICE THE LAST PRESENT SERENA OPENED, WHAT IT WAS? LUCY: OF COURSE. IT WAS NEW P.J.s. SCOTT: MM-HMM. AND WHAT DID SHE DO? SHE RAN RIGHT UPSTAIRS TO PUT THEM ON. THAT SANTA CLAUS, HE'S A TRICKY GUY, HUH? LUCY: OH, I THINK THIS SANTA CLAUS IS VERY TRICKY AND VERY SWEET. I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS CHRISTMAS, FOREVER AND EVER. SCOTT: WELL, I WISH I COULD TAKE CREDIT FOR IT, BUT IT WAS SERENA'S IDEA. LUCY: THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME BE PART OF YOUR FAMILY. SCOTT: LUCY, I DON'T LET YOU BE A PART. YOU ARE A PART OF THIS FAMILY. YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? NOW, IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE HERE, THAT'S OK. NO HARD FEELINGS. BUT YOU'RE STILL PART OF THE FAMILY. LUCY: SCOTT, I -- SCOTT: NO -- WAIT. YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU KNOW WHAT? I'M SORRY I JUST SAID THAT BECAUSE I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO. AND NOW YOU THINK THIS IS YOUR OPPORTUNITY TO GO. LUCY: NO. SCOTT -- SCOTT: NO, NO, NO. YOU KNOW WHAT, LUCY? THE HELL -- YOU'RE GOING TO PLACATE ME WITH ALL OF THESE COMPLIMENTS ABOUT, YOU KNOW, FAMILY STUFF AND WHAT GREAT FRIENDS WE ARE. BUT, YOU KNOW, THAT'S A LOT OF HOGWASH. BECAUSE THE TRUTH OF IT IS WHEN YOU WERE SICK ON YOUR HOSPITAL BED THERE, YOU SAID THAT SLEEPING TOGETHER WAS A MISTAKE, THAT YOU WANTED TO BE WITH KEVIN. HELL, YOU PRACTICALLY GOT YOURSELF KILLED TRYING TO SAVE HIM. LUCY: OK. YES, YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT. I -- I DID. AND IT'S BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT ANYTHING BAD TO HAPPEN TO KEVIN. YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT. AND YOU'RE ALSO RIGHT ABOUT THE FACT THAT I BABBLED ON ABOUT HIM AND MAYBE IT WAS A MISTAKE THAT WE SLEPT TOGETHER. I KEPT, IN MY DELIRIUM, SAYING THINGS LIKE THAT. BUT IF YOU WANT TO STICK ON THAT, IF YOU WANT TO KEEP THAT IN YOUR HEAD AND HOLD IT INSIDE ALL YOUR LIFE, THEN YOU GO RIGHT AHEAD. BUT HERE'S SOMETHING ELSE I WANT YOU TO HOLD INSIDE -- WHEN I WAS STUCK BEHIND THAT BRICK WALL AND I THOUGHT I WAS DYING, THAT I WAS BREATHING MY LAST BREATH -- DO YOU KNOW WHAT SCARED ME MORE THAN ANYTHING? THE THOUGHT THAT I WOULD NEVER, EVER SEE YOU AND SERENA AGAIN. THAT SCARED ME MORE THAN MY IMMINENT DEATH EVER COULD. DO YOU -- DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M SAYING TO YOU?